"How did I lose my way...and why did I quit?"
This question is one about exercise and it's been weighing on my heart quite heavily for some time now.
Knowing I've done what's required before and have been successful.
I also know that while I was doing it ...I kept claiming over and over "I can do all things through Christ who strengthen's me" as my muscles strained to press forward beating down a charted path of three miles every morning. Breathing another effort in itself... exhale mouth..... inhale nose..... exhale mouth..... inhale nose.
How my heart races right now just thinking about it all over again...while this also makes me feel sad to have missed that time with Him.
(Pause)
Here I am...missing it... yearning it...wanting a new start.
It's as if there's been a chain holding me in place these past two years.
I've tried previously (chain and all) to start over each time with the purpose of a having a healthier lifestyle...and wow what a difference which is like day and night...eating better, drinking more H2O and even treating others around me sooo much better. Then something akin to the tug of that chain stumbles me causing me to lose sight of the goal. This brings on guilt which is also known as failure...then the excuses start to resurface which always makes it easier to not feel so bad about quitting.
Here's where I'm at with this...
I want to break free... I need to break free...LORD help me to break free because "in YOU Lord I know I can and will have strength to do all things."
"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery". Galatians 5:1
Adding this to it as well...
" approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:16
(Dear Faithful Readers thanks for "listening"...in being able to share what's happening behind the scenes makes sharing the victories even better.)
6 comments:
I need to join you in that exercise club. I was doing great till about 2 months ago, then it all fell apart!
Great reflection! I also find that I feel much better overall when I exercise regularly. I know it can be tough to keep it up with the kiddos distracting you, but I'm sure you will get back in the groove soon!
I think as Christians we try to live such a clean "non-addict" type of lifestyle that sometimes food is our addiction-speaking for myself of course...ex smoker and have had a drink or four in my day! And exercise, phew, I sweat just thinking about doing it. You have such a strong faith and seem so obedient, I'm sure once you begin your routine you'll conquer it:)just fine. Best of luck and I'm rootin' for ya! I know how hard it is...my Kashi(healthy) Pizza is in the oven as we speak.
I so know how you feel. Its crazy as I read this I was visualizing exactly how you felt, how I feel.
Thank you all for understanding and for the ((hugs))...I'm looking forward to sharing with you how He is blessing.
Praying for you! We all have our chains don't we.
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