Fast Updated:

Day # 28 -How the Fast has affected me.

I don't have a solid answer or even a broader prospective ..somethings haven't changed since I posted about it here when I thought I could "master it".
Then I posted about it here again when I realized only 10 days later I couldn't do it easily!



Maybe your thinking, "well, why did you say you would?"


My answer:

I don't know, maybe a part of me wanted to show that I was a faithful servant to HIM.
Maybe it would just serve as an accountability thing? I don't think it's because I wanted to "toot my own horn..." then again who doesn't want to "show'm how it's done, right?!"



What have I learned in this process?

1. It's not about what I can do for HIM, instead it's what HE has done for me regardless of me.



2. I'm a selfish-spoiled to my own ways- sinner.



3. I've got issues with self-denial and self-discipline.

Did I just post all that?!...

What I'm re-learning about HIM in this process:

• HE LOVES ME!


• HE knew I needed fair trail come judgement time so HE provided himself instead.


• Did I mention HE DIED for me, you, even the lowest of low in order for a fair trail.


• At His 40 day fast He was tempted & "Mastered it", I know that I can't not do it of myself, even in the smallest temptations, let's face I'm a goner without Him.

This list could go on forever, so I'll stop with this one:

• Regardless of the outcome of whatever trail;tribulation;condition I'm in HIS love for me will NEVER change, EVER.

Tonight as I come to the end of a very blessed & well rested weekend in His providing for me every detail, as I selfishly absorb it all.

I am comforted by the promise found in Hebrews 6:10 (listed at the top)

He knows my name, He knows each beat of this heart and there's nothing I could do to earn it more...it's enough for Him for me to Love in ways I know how.

Just as we are not "critical" our own children in how they share with us their love.

I want to make Him smile so I continue to "try new things" often bruising myself or falling down, He picks me up, laughs and says " I LOVE YOU silly girl..and there's no amount of fasting you can do to earn it..."